Somehow whenever i feel like i need to talk to my friends somehow the people who i trust the most are never there to listen...my insecurities and my fears....who do i tell them to..if not them..this makes me feel very lonely...this gets me to hope that something interesting or life changing will happen and i'd not notice how lonely i am or maybe after that i wouldn't feel lonely...vut at the end of the day im alone..in college it somehow seems that everybody is better than me.. even though i try at times and i end up with rotten luck..which causes me to not try...cause then at least i wouldnt have to be disappointed...i really want to write about something nice which happened or something like that...but its just that im too boring and my life just sucks...im not good at any thing but hoping...i hope everybody else is doing better than i am...